New Lease...

What an interesting year it’s been…I know I haven’t blogged since I got the job at the College and rightfully so: I’ve been CRAZY busy!

I figured the way I feel today is poignant, considering that today is my wedding anniversary. DO NOT be scared! DO NOT hurriedly click the “back” button. There will be NO melancholy here! But there will be plenty of introspection, as is my nature. Wink wink…

I recently read through some of my older blogs, and oh boy, was there pain . There was confusion and heartache and betrayal not so much hidden anywhere. It was scarily observant if you spent more than 5 minutes with me. I would admit that I was a scary person back then: quick to jump, quick to get my feelings hurt, quick to walk away.

Now, though, on the anniversary of personal tragedy, I find myself not sad that its over or reminiscient of fond memories gone wayward, but I feel liberated. I feel content. I feel new. Isn’t it something?!

I am settled into the BEST job I could’ve ever gotten for myself and I find that it offers me so much time to focus on personal goals for myself. There is so much opportunity for growth for my little EMS Program as well as for my professional self. Now, I have NOT buried myself in my work and I refuse to become the “crazy cat lady” at the end of the road who mutters to herself and dresses in flowery frocks with socks and sandals. I also will not become Mad-Maxine. But I will become something great.

There was a time that I wondered how in the hell I had gotten where I was. I took more than a wrong turn at Albuquerque, I ran right off the damn road…I hadn’t the slightest idea on how to pick myself up, I only knew that I would have to get to know me again and that it would take time. And look at what a little time can do! I won’t say I’m well-adjusted (we all know that that is a statistical impossibility), but I am having FUN with my life!

Blessed am I to have gotten through some “rough stuff” for the trials are over and the sun is bright!